My Lily Jane Life

“Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance, you must keep moving.” — Albert Einstein

Writing Anonymously: My Lily Jane Life

More than four years ago, I started this blog as a way to express my thoughts to the world under the freedom of anonymity. It served its purpose at the time, and then kind of got forgotten in the fog.

Now, I’m starting it up again for the same purpose but from a new angle that’s been painstakingly chiseled, buffed, and shaped through time, maturity, and experience.

I’m a very different person than I was four years ago, with new ideas and beliefs. I’ve experienced a slew of fresh emotions, thoughts, tragedies, and triumphs.

Yet, in one way I am still very much the same. I love to write and seek out the truth in all things.

Coming back to Lily Jane

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Quote – Thich Nhat Hanh

There are thousands of channels
in our consciousness;
it’s up to us
to choose the channel.

Thich Nhat Hanh

I was a crappy friend – part 2

So yesterday I posted part one of this. Read it if you haven’t, and then come back to this.

Last night I stayed up kinda later than usual thinking about what to write in my apology letter. I wanted it to be properly sincere and apologetic without being over the top emotional and pleading for forgiveness. ‘Cause we all know that often has the opposite effect than the one we want.

This morning I got up earlier than normal, fixed myself a cup of tea, and sat down to write out the card after letting the wording I’d planned last night simmer and percolate in my mind overnight. I’ve found that is super helpful in jogging any last minute ideas loose from the corners of my brain that might have been obscured by my emotions the first go-around.

Anyway, I got it written and was pretty pleased with the result.

As I got ready for work and then once I got to work and was doing my morning tasks before my friend arrived, I started thinking about what I would say when I presented it to them. But I started thinking: you know, my friend is not the type to feel entitled to a grand apology complete with a heartfelt card with a goofy joke on it. What if the whole apology letter thing isn’t even necessary? What if they’re not even mad at me?

And then, the other extreme: What if they’re TOTALLY mad and infuriated with me?

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I was a crappy friend today

I didn’t mean to do it, but I still did it.

You know those days when you wish you could press rewind and start all over again?

Yeah. That was me today.

Fun fact about me: I have been endowed with a delightful ability to utter the worst-possible, most embarrassing combination of words while watching helplessly as the words tumble out of my mouth in a particularly ungraceful way. This phenomenon is at its most brilliant form whenever I get nervous or put on the spot (or when my lovely brain just decides to have a mind of its own).

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A Life Worth Living

What is a life worth living?

What kind of life is it that the one living it will look back on it and say, “That life was totally worth it”?

What life is the one that won’t have countless regrets at the end of it?

This life is a special one. Rare, a gem in the desert, an emerald among quartz.

And yet, anyone can choose to have this life. A life worth living.

It’s all about choices. Daily decisions to put the tough, the meaningful, the deep, the valuable–above the cheap, the fun, the temporal, the fleeting, the amusing.

A life worth living.

A life that is not just one life isolated, but a network–vast, unending, fused together with all the other lives that were connected by the touch of that one life.

That life is not remembered for itself, but for how it was lived.

That life is remembered, not by its own merit, but by its worth bestowed upon it by the generations following.

That life is truly worth it when the life itself is swallowed up in the mists of time, and yet its continuing influence only grows, expands, and transforms the lives beyond its initial reach.

This life–it’s not seen very often today. It’s rare and precious, and even when it does happen, it is so often obscured by the superficial culture that it is gone before someone chances to discover it from the past and raise it up to a great pedestal for future generations to emulate.

The Superwoman Mom. The Empathic Mailman. The Courageous Black Rights Activist. The Eccentric Inventor. The Passionate Writer. The Child Orphanage Volunteer.

We remember them after they are gone, we memorialize them, we eulogize them, we are grateful for their improvements to our lives, spiritually, physically, mentally, personally, professionally.

Why do we not recognize these people before it is too late to thank them personally?

And yet, they do not ask for our praise. They do not seek after approbation and acclamation.

That is what makes this life so rare and valuable.

This life is simple, quiet, fervent, focused. It is others-centered instead of self-centered.

It will keep on working tirelessly, endlessly, whether it sees results or not. It is not a quitter. It is not lazy. It is not frivolous. It is not avaricious. It is not arrogant.

It is loving, caring, compassionate. It is kind, humble, gentle. It is strong, courageous, determined. It is sacrificial, recklessly passionate, utterly fulfilling. It believes in hope, in truth, in justice. It endures the hard times; it comes out victorious.

It is a life worth living.

~ Lily Jane

{1 Corinthians 13}


Speak Life

This song has really hit home to me. Lately I feel like I have not been speaking life to the world, to my family, and to anyone else I meet. Instead, I’ve been selfish, prideful, critical, resentful.

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Quote – Les Brown | Your Reality

“Don’t let someone else’s opinion of you become your reality.”

– Les Brown

My Word for the New Year

Even though we’re into February already, I wanted to share what God has impressed on me as my “word for the year,” the concept that He wants me to focus on this year in my personal and spiritual life.

The word is love. Specifically, the verb form. Loving others. Not just any love, but loving them with a sacrificial, unconditional love that generates from a heart that sees as Jesus sees.

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Quote – Martin Buber

“Solitude is the place of purification.”

~ Martin Buber

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